I think it just may be

I think I may be suffering from postmenstrual syndrome. Not premenstrual. I used to suffer from the pre kind but now my whole schedule has changed and instead of suffering right before the onset of my menstruation it all happens right after. The weight gain, the fatigue, the irritability (well, this one happens 24/7 now, unfortunately for my kids) the adult acne--it's disgusting! I know that if I ask the doctor he's just going to think I'm nuts. I don't need another person in my life thinking that too. I need to find a natural way to balance myself out. I can't continue feeling so off.

Scorcher!

Boy, was it hot today! 92 Degrees! The kids went out and played in the sprinkler while I cooked. Afterwards, we had those ice pops that look like a rocket ship. I forgot what they're called but they always bring back memories of my childhood. The kind that are red, white and blue and absolutely delicious. It was the perfect day for them. Mmmm!

Fantastic Indeed!

Fantastic Mr Fox has to be one of the best movies out. I think I liked it better than my own children did. I think I can relate to Ash. You know, because he's just a bit different!

P.S. For some reason, this fox reminds me of my daughter--physically!

Some days are bad

My son is having a really hard time today. He's been on the brink of tears since the day started. When we came back home today from our outing I ran him a very warm bath with 5 cups of epsom salt to soothe him back to normal. I think it may have worked because he seems much happier now. I hate days like these. They smack me in the face with the reality of his condition. I tend to forget. I wish that speaking to him would take some effect with him when he's feeling overwhelmed but that's easier said than done. Sometimes I just have to let him be. Hopefully, tomorrow is a better day. Here's hoping.

Simplify

Hi. It's been a while. I've been trying to keep my self together and sane for the past couple of months. We've had a lot going on but all I can say is that I'm positive that all things happen for a reason and that in the end things always work out. I've been meaning to start fresh in many aspects of my life. You know--getting rid of the toxic elements in life and starting new. I've made some changes already. One has been the removal of toxic individuals in my life who took up so much time and effort and in the grand scheme of things were not worth it. I tried, though. I always do. But is it really worth giving up my health and my happiness for people who, no matter what you do, will always find something to bitch and moan about? Not in my book, at least, not anymore. It took me almost forty years to finally stand up for myself and I'm positive that this time it's for good. I'm premenopausal for God's sake. It's about time I started realizing what I should have realized many years ago. So, with that in mind, I have all kinds of plans to follow through on. Here's a short list:

1. Stop being such a consumer. The world has enough crap in it already and I don't need to add on to that. I've been a pretty good consumer for many years and I think there's a whole lot of other things I can spend my energy on.

2. Downsize. And by this I mean reducing the amount of things I have. I have a love of purses and bags. Ooh, I love them. But do I really need so many. So, in this respect, I plan to keep only what I use and need and get rid of the rest. My husband is one of those people who needs two pairs of shoes. One pair for work and one pair for going out. That's it. Life really is much simpler that way.

3. I've never been one to keep up with the Jones'. But now I think I'm just gonna keep up with myself.

My list is longer. But I can't think of all the things I want to do right now so when I do I'll post them. For now, I'm going to start with the basics and that means use what I already have and not purchase anything new until everything is used up. I'm going to do it. You'll see.